WoRLd CoMeS CrAsHiNg DoWn- An ApOLoGy

Dear Corinne, I read your blog and know that you are furious with me and my attitude..... I admit that i'm to blame for what happened... i won't pass the blame on to someone or say that i was not at fault but I hope that u can calm down give me a chance to explain myself.... I'm not sure how to start this but first of all, i want to say that i'm really sorry.... i shouldn't have lead you to believe that i would be going, but the thing was that i was misled too.... i really didn't mean to hurt or disappoint you and had no reason to.... but pls realize that i was under a lot of pressure..... you on one hand were asking me for a reply soon and my parents were like what's the big deal.... if u don't go with your friend, you can always go with us.... I tried to tell them that i was not the only one involved and that you were waiting for my reply but they just couldn't understand and i was kinda at a lost too.... and my mum did agree that i could go with u but parents will be parents and just say things for the sake of saying them.... I was of course fed up and made u and them fed up too.... and its not easy being in the middle... and they scolded me upside down for trying to say that i wanted to go alone with you and not with the family... pls understand that i didn't have it easy at all..... i admit that i should have told you that i wasn't that confirmed yet but i really didn't forsee such a problem as they already gave me permission.... once again... i'm sorry.....i hope that this won't affect our friendship, i know that i've hurt u and disappointed u but i'm just as hurt and disappointed... its not that i didn't want to go.... my mistake lay in getting my family all excited about going to Japan and making it a famaily thing rather than a individual thing of me going to japan.... i hope u understand.....i'm not shifting the blame to my parents or u, its natural for any parent to place more value on the family and their children...and any parent will be worried about their daughter going overseas with someone else .... but dun misunderstand me here..... you're my best friend and i value your friendship....i would gladly go on a holiday with you if i ever have the chance its just that i screwed it up big time and i'm sorry..... i just hope that you can bury this hatchet and that we'll remain friends..... and thanks for giving me a chance to explain myself and reading this through.......we've been friends for so long... i dun want our relationship to go down the drain becuase i've been an idiot.....